To try and clear the schedule until you feel as though there’s enough time?
But really, will there ever be, ‘right time’?
I say this as I am in the midst of a hectic month writing up this PhD.
<<last minute analysis>>
<<late nights, early mornings>>
<<saying no to a lot of social engagements>>
<<putting off blogging>>
<<juggling family commitments>>
navigating life’s emotions.
It’s been a year since my Thamma and Dadu passed away.
Yet, now that a year’s passed.
I’ve acknowledged the fact that it *is* possible to mindfully acknowledge and appreciate a death anniversary.
I could have dwelled on so many facts.
The reason for why I was spending the day alone with my granddad was bittersweet.
Why I hadn’t visited my family in almost 2 years.
The guilt I was feeling because of this fact.
But I was reminded.
We cannot pause life.
We have to go with it.
Life won’t wait for us.
I can’t put life on hold, until I finish this PhD…because the next ‘PhD’ or big ‘life deadline’ will come up.
But I can choose to enjoy the moments as they happen.
To keep my eyes open, ears.
So, no ambitious blog schedule until I submit.
But I do want to document again, the little loves, the mindful moments and the things that have added the peace into my current hecticness.
- Spending uninterrupted time with my Grandad. Experiencing life at his pace. Soaking up his music, his wisdom and his very specific way of doing things.
- Reminiscing with him about my grandma, Thamma. Her day was not sad, it was more a happy celebration of her zest for life.
- (Trying to) Enjoy this * last* stage of the PhD mindfully. I keep reminding myself, there will be a time when I will look back nostalgically…though you have the right to shake me if I suddenly end up putting on some rose-tinted glasses about my experience!
- Feeling proud of how far I’ve come [no more do I need to collect *placenta* samples for experiments!
- & Writing my acknolwedgments:
As part of your PhD thesis, most people thank those who have helped them along the way. I’ve started using this task as a form of ‘positive’ procrastination. I’ve convinced myself that since it forms an essential part of the thesis, that distracting myself with its writing is a valid ‘break’ from actual writing….
The added benefit of course if that writing the acknowledgements always puts me in a good mood. It’s always hard to feel hard done by when you realise who and what you’re grateful for.
Whether you’re writing up any form of thesis or not, I highly recommend giving it a go. Who and what are you grateful for? Can you be thankful for someone today?
What’s made you happy this week?
Until the next time (hopefully not so far away!
Namaste | from Ananya xo